Ugh. I was always called fat by the other kids. I mean, I am but I never understood why it was so important to say it all the time, lol. It's hard to get past that kind of stuff but you have to keep pushing.
Love you, Pony!
I still feel like that fat kid from high school. I can still hear the names, remember the bullying, and at times still feel the despair. Wondering each time something good happens to me if I truly deserve it. For just words they do leave some amazingly deep and lasting scars. I shudder to think how bad it could have been if I didn’t beat those bullies so bad on the 2 occasions I snapped. The shear joy I felt while causing them pain still bothers me to this day. I hate knowing that capacity lives inside me.
It never mattered to the bullies that I tried to keep in shape. They didn’t see how I watched what I ate like no teenager should. It wasn’t until very late in my life I learned I had been fighting an undiagnosed Thyroid condition all my life. Even my parents just wrote it off as me making poor choices and just being lazy. I believe that is when I stopped fighting and accepted what they were saying, started living my life as they saw it. I fell into a trap that I have been in for half my life.
Well, whoever "they" are, there wrong!
I was a stick figure growing up and have a last name that rhymes with monkey, so that made me a prime target for bullies and teasing. Being in a parochial school I hated, I got in the habit of just clocking people in the face to stop it and in hopes to get out of that school. The best defense is a good offense. All it did was isolate me.....though people did tend to leave me alone.
Though I am a mellow laid back easy going type these days, I found myself practicing this strike first strategy at work dealing with sales people (biggest manipulators known to mankind) and others that attack me and my work and decisions.
Fortunately a very good friend coached me about taking deep breaths and calming the fuck down while at work.
So I know this clip wasn't about anger management, that how I dealt with people who tried to make me feel like I am inadequate.
I no longer let these "they" types live rent free in my head. Not for a second. Not going to change my positive attitude or mood....otherwise "they" win
great clip btw